First of all I think you did great. I think FG would be proud of you. You did work and worked with no emotion. I loved the part of the Desperate Housewives too along with the comment of not going to cry again...
As for what to do now. Do you really have to make a decision? I dont think so. You are here to rebuild your R with your H. Even if he didnt tell you exactly what you wanted to hear, he confirmed he wants it to work. He even wrote 4 pages on his notebook!!!! That alone is different, isnt it?
As Ali said, I am sure too it takes time. Why dont you try this book everybody keeps mentioning here?
And sis..., how about relaxing some and act "as if" your M is fine? Take a break. I think you need it. K
