Having a bad day today. Thinking of her with OM. MIL called last night. My W reiterated to her she is not in love with me anymore. MIL told her she waking the biggest mistake of her life. She told her m,other that her mother knew she wasn't happy for the past couple of years. She never told me, just like in the book, it has hit me hard. Don't know why all these emotions are back, probably hearing that all over again. Getting busy with a project now and hopefully the emotion will pass, feeling very alone right now. Reading DR again, trying to get focused. I miss her very much, and I want her back, and i want her back now. I know, roller coaster ride. Meeting the people looking to buy my camper this afternoon, hopefully it sells. I want to close that chapter and start a new one. MIL told her she is not herself and my W argued that she is the same person, but everyone is saying she is different. I know not to believe anything she says, but I am worried that she feels she is the same and this is her life now. Is this just more justification of her leaving because of her mothers comments? MIL is having issues with ehr husbands health, her mothers health and this situation. she has a couple of drinks and reaches out. She told my W she is making the biggest mistake of her life and she got no reply. Yet she got replies to every other comment. I think when her mother does this it sets my W back and she withdraws. Not really expecting much. I am doing the brakes tomorrow, then there will be no reason for contact with her unless she contacts me. Looking for some support. will check back later.
