S, I had to chuckle at your comments about the shoes and clothes that you h had been wearing. They all appear to be reading the same book on what to do or not to do throughout their self examination of themselves. He'll continue to try on different "masks" along the way until he finds one that he's comfortable w.
You've been well in allowing him to be himself...no demands. But what about you? I'm concerned that you've been at this for a while and as a lbs, we never worry about ourselves during this time. Are you taking care of yourself? Staying busy w/those things that you've wanted to do and never had the time? While he's out blazing a new trail in the universe, you too should be rediscovering yourself during this time.
Just remember, it all takes lots of time, energy, patience, compassion and empathy when they are trying to find themselves. Whether he comes or not, it's out of our control. The man upstairs will be the one to determine whether he's ready to return to you or if there is another destiny for the both of you. I do think, from what you've posted, he's got a ways to go.
BTW, many of them do want to return, but the lbs has moved on and has shut the door on them. Some have too much pride to ever admit to the lbs that they screwed up and want to come home. Others will never grow up and like the tunnel so much that they stay in it and become bitter old people who are all alone at the end of the day. But for now, keep the faith and hope alive. We do not know the outcome of your h's destiny but we can pray and support you along the way. We can hope that he's going to be one of those that will want to come home and start anew w/you when he's finished growing up.
Continue to post...it helps sometimes to talk to others.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
