So to update, H and I have been exchanging a few emails which have been positive and also he responded to a text. In his last email he asked about selling the house again and I have left it as asking what he would like to do next, as I already said yes to selling back in June. He has not responded yet.
I was thinking about how I feel at the weekend as it is a year this week since h left. This was the original deadline I gave myself for moving on, however I am not 'done' yet. I still feel I have so much left to learn and also I don't feel as if the relationship is dead yet, although it may look that way from the outside. Even if it is we have things that we need to sort out together and I would rather divorce with dignity than go on with my life still holding onto blame. I need to be able to live with myself and be true to my core values and know that I did everything I could to save my marriage. I still love him and want to be married to him but am prepared to give him the space he needs at the moment and to try and be there as a friend.
