I still believe in miracles

[istherehope]

Hi,

Just feeling a bit disappointed today. H did not reach out all weekend, even though he said that he would call. Last week we spent 2 nights together that went well, at least in my non-fog covered eyes. Today I'm in Paris, well not really, in a suburb on an MBA campus, flying back to Dublin late tonight, then staying in a hotel and flying to Poland at 6 AM. I am feeling like he is pretty mean. I am not sure how else to put that. I booked a hotel of my own accord so that I would not stay in OUR home, and he has not even said one thing to me like thank you, or cool, or even acknowledged that I am going to be there.

I am online now for a bit and so is he, and not one word to me. It is as-if he has decided to be as cold as possible.

Friday he was pretty nice and normal. Do I just continue to wait this out and not say a word? The silence is very unlike him, which is why I am so confused. I am getting back to Dublin on Thursday, and I just don't understand the total lack of contact. I feel like he really hates me now or has no respect for me, or wants to be done with me so much that he will do anything to push me away. I mean I just don't get treating someone this way. I am going through so much to give him the space and time that he wants, and he has never acknowledged this, not even been kind to me.

OK I don't mean to be so negative. I'm just feeling sick. I have a cold, and I can't call my best friend and talk to him about my day. Should I stay dark or should I send an IM? I feel resentment building up inside and I don't know if it's better to try and alleviate it by reaching out?

Ugh,

ITH