fresh start with someone else who doesn't have history with her behavior;
I just reread your post and found this sentence. I can tell you with absolute certainty that this is a definite desire for someone who has had and A and admit it or not feels tremendous guilt or remorse or self loathing.
Trouble is - and I feel this daily - if you dont really get to the bottom of why you thought you could have an A you will do it again.
I can pin loads of reasons but i think i am not understanding it. I have no family history of this immoral behaviour. where did it come from ? Is it my h fault ( his inability to communicate - to understand me - to love me the way i need to be loved ) Why the hell should he take any blame ?
