Max I missed you too. I don't know how much advice I bring but the contact feels good.
I wanted to add just one thing. In that "Decide" post, it sounded so immediate and not very understanding and I apologize for that. here is the thing - in retrospect I clicked "return" too quickly. I don't mean to be pushing you to decide one way or the other RIGHT NOW.
It is perfectly ok if today you will not decide. It is possible that the best thing for you is to defer the decision. nothing wrong with that.
It is perfectly fine to not know, or to waffle, for a time. Sometimes you have to wait for inspiration, for the right insight. Sometimes it comes in a week, in a month, in a season, etc. But it is hard to waffle, or to not know. It is difficult and it yanks you around inside. and it is difficult on everyone else, too, Everyone who is affected.
Once you know what you want, everything is clarified.
But wisdom is not instant. Just because you want to know, does not mean you will know, right now. but if you are in this situation you can be sure to ride the rollercoaster while you are there. when you are grounded and have decided - then is when the ups and downs dissipate.
