Hi little d... I'm sorry that the convo today started to feel icky for you. I think that, unfortunately, that is so normal. You're validated and justified while at the same time being hit with the reality that you went thru hell and he finally is starting to see 'what he did wrong' blah blah blah. I mean, jeez, how can you not feel icky and think that maybe all of this pain you've experienced could have been minimized or even avoided.
Bottom line is you gave it your all. You did a damn good job of trying to keep your M together. Be proud of that. Mourn the loss if you need to, but I've no doubt you'll bounce back soon and realize that this is just another day in the fabulous life of Dana. It's normal to feel icky. It was all icky. You were treated icky. Icky is the perfect word to describe this.
