Friday night I spent the evening home with my girls. D17 was home sick w/ the crud. N14 had been gone all week with the funeral and stuff. So we had a pretty good evening. Good to catch up.
Saturday AM H showed up. He looked pretty rough. But said he was home and in bed by 10-10:30 so of course I wondered if he really was at home or if he was home alone... anyway it was just a thought and then I let it go. We worked outside some. He then went to working on getting the combine ready. I asked him if he needed anymore help, if not I was going to mow. He said he didn't so I mowed lawn. He pretty much did his thing and I mine for most of the day. Again he was nice and flirting and acting like his old self. I tried to not let it get to me but of course it did. In the evening 2 BIL's, BIL's wife, and kids came out and we had a fire, roasted marshmallows and played with the kids. It was a good evening. Eventually BIL and family went home. Other BIL was in the house, H and I were sitting by the fire. H said "BIL can stay here with you, I'm going home." I said, "uh, no he's not. You can take him home." we went back and forth a little, then (couldn't stop my mouth) I said "whatever H, we both know why you don't want him to go home with you." and I got up and walked away. H just looked at me. I picked chairs and stuff up and put things away. Then I went into the house. It wasn't very long and H came in too. I laid on the floor and watched TV. H and BIL ate, then H laid on the couch. They stayed the night.
Today I made breakfast for the guys. I helped sort calves to take to sale barn. First load H asked if I was going to ride along. I said no, BIL is going so I'll stay here. He said "whatever, don't matter". (seemed like it did) Second load I really wasn't wanting to help because I'm really afraid of the cows/calves at the other place. H wouldn't take "don't want to" for an answer and I did help. It went fine. I rode with him on the second load. When we got back here, H really dragged his feet. He was tired, needed to sleep cuz he has to work tonight. I got the distict feeling he wanted to stay here. But BIL and SIL was here, so he went home.
All and all a good weekend. TOH did an excellent job of acting as if and being detached. (sept for the comment). H was tired. His heart is hurting (I am extrememly concerned but not showing him), but it seemed there was more. He was quiet, he seems sad, a little angry, but not at me.
And maybe I'm totally wrong, but, a man has an OW or not, he's sure he wants a D, and that he doesn't want to be with his wife, and then you can flirt with your wife and pick on her like you always used to, I'm not buying it...but then again, I guess old habits die hard...?
M41 H42 D17 Adopted N14 M22 T24 "Bomb" 4/07 Sep 8/07 Admitted OW 11/07(only to me) OW back 12/4/07 PA on off thru 7/08 says done w/OW but not coming home 8/08 D final 7/09 Moving on and up!!
