Don't know what to do- Please help

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Thanks Sara

I am so lost right now as to what to do, even with no reading the email, my faith has been lost...I just don't know if its worth it anymore.
For the sake of my kids, am I losing myself...does he really care for me? I am beginning to doubt it even more, i wonder if he is just staying because he would have to face his family, friends with what he has really done to us.
Why am I staying, why do I continue to do this...we are almost at the 2 year anniversary of the first bomb, how long is this going to gone on for...how much more do I have to deal with.
I know that I can't fix this on my own, but is he really going try, is he really going to give her up? I just don't know