1.) Sunday: taking care of both my parents and feeling sorry for myself. My mother just got home from the hospital when my father was sent to the hospital where he found he has shingles. I'm tired and feeling sad. 2.) I notice that it is difficult to keep my hopes up after a week of not talking to 'A'. 3.) I begin to worry and start feeling hopeless. 4.) I have to hope that there is some pattern to this. 5.) I have to hope that our 'R' will begin to build. I don't know how, and I don't know when. 6.) Have to go for a walk.
