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[optimistwife]

well, we had our weekend together. It went well overall, and H seemed in a good mood overall...

The bad part is that when he came over friday that he fell asleep on the couch within an hour. He's been getting up super early for work, so really isn't good for anything much past 9pm. I had already made other plans for Sat.- which was good- showing him that I am GAL, but we spent the afternoon and evening together too. Went to movie, picked up dinner.

The hard part is that he comes home for a few nights, and I want everything to be like normal, and act hard to make things seem great. Of course they aren't. We sleep in the same bed, but the past few weeks he's backed off from physical attention again. In our past life he was very much into cuddling, etc. I tried to initiate a little yesterday and he pretty much told me he didn't feel like it... I backed off pretty quick, but it stinks! I looked great this weekend! New clothes (he noticed) and even my new victoria secret set (he didn't get to notice )

He was reading me his list of places that he would like to apply for internships after he graduates in May. I am quite curious as I'd like to be living there with him. I wonder what he is thinking, but haven't pressed him on anything. He seems to be a bit more distant again. I am trying to be supportive and offered to help him drive to any interviews (knowing that most are a couple days eachway). Not sure if that was a good thing or not.

I just love spending time with him so much. I really miss him. But I am happy for the time we do have together, in that he still feels comfortable coming home for a day or so on the weekend occasionally, even though things are still up in the air. I guess this is his way of trying. He did put his ring on again Saturday (I don't think he wears it during the week at school- but happy that he is putting it on for me).

Just wish I had more hugs this weekend. I am longing for some affection.