I am really in the dumps right now. I feel like begging, pleading, pouring out my heart to my ex right now to take me back. I know I can't and won't - but I am hurting so badly right now. Just when I thought I was getting normal, I come crashing down. For whatever reason, I am especially missing my daughter right now. I wish I was putting her to bed and watching her sleep.
Life seems so pointless right now and I just can't stop crying. I feel so alone and nothing right now seems to numb the pain. I know tomorrow will be a better day, but right now I just feel like quitting. I am so mad at myself, I feel broken and lost.
The thing is, I have never had a girl friend, a lover, etc other than my ex. She and my daughter are the only family I have ever known. I feel like my whole world is falling apart and that I am being sent like a lamb to the slaughter. I want my ex/daughter to be happy more than anything in the world. I love them with all my heart and only want whats best for them.
Okay, breathe. Cold shower. I will be alright, but just had to vent.
