Today has been such a discouragement. My ex went to a baby shower today while I took care of our daughter. Later this evening, her friend that is having the baby called me up. I hadn't spoken to this person in a long time. Anyway, she was telling me that she told my ex that she should give me a second chance and that people do change. She said that my ex told her that she would never go back to me after what I did to her. Her friend told me that my ex got pretty upset when she told her that.
When my ex came to pick up our daughter, I could tell she was upset. She told me what her friend had told her at the baby shower and then proceeded to tell me that she doesn't trust me and would never trust me enough to have a relationship again. She didn't say much after that and took our daughter home. She seemed to really be in a rush to go home.
I don't know what to make of this or if I should just blow it off. But it did feel like a knife went straight through my heart and made me question if it was even worth the effort. I know that trust is going to take time to rebuild, but sometimes I feel like she has already made up her mind to never trust me again regardless of what I do. I feel like we've made progress, but I don't understand why she feels the need to make comments insinuating that we are not getting back together every now and then.
I don't know - I am confused today. Her friend told me she didn't know what to make of the situation and that I should stick it through for about a year and an half of so to see if things can work out. I'm not ready to give up yet, but today didn't help things at all. I don't really know what motivated her friend to tell my ex what she did. I've never really spoken to this friend of hers much over the last few years, so who knows.
