X called last night, asked if I would keep the kids so she could work a half day today. I agreed. I asked that they be ready to go when I arrived, a 180 for me. When I got to her place she wanted to talk while she got ready for work. We talked about some financial entanglements we still have, the economy, kids, and even OM. She commented, "One day he's going to have to grow up." I asked, "OM or our son?" She laughed and said "Definately OM." OM has always been the carefree, "dare devil"(X's words) thrill-seeker type. He has lots of toys with gas powered engines. Maybe that was attractive in the beginning but it's getting a little old?
X asked me to look at something in the house that wasn't working. I fixed it easily, took the kids and left.
At lunchtime X called and asked if we could meet her for lunch (4th time this has happened in the last 3.5 months. On one occasion I declined). I agreed. We had a great time.
At some point she brought up the new girl with whom she has been trying to "fix me up." I haven't brought her up in conversation once since my original comment about her. X told me new girl has broken up with her "not serious" boyfriend, but new girl believes she should wait for a while before she dates again. I agreed that was wise and said no more.
Sometimes I think she is making baby steps.
I also sometimes think X needs me to date someone else to relieve her guilt and to prove that she is the one I really want by choosing her over them (she had severe self-esteem issues).
If that's not the case then she is totally done and really doesn't care if I date.
The ironic thing is she has gotten very jealous when she thinks (mistakenly) I am dating someone.
I'm not ready nor do I have any desire to date anyone.
Except X.
Last edited by sleeper; 10/12/0801:18 AM.
"The answers are within you" (can't remember who). Unfortunately, so is the bullshit.
