I've learned to forgive myself. For me, forgiveness is the decision to not live in the past. It's not easy...there are lots of "past" bits that keep cropping up, but they don't serve me.
I can easily forget the past and look forward. I am fantastic with that, BUT what says we have not learned the real reason, for why we did what we did, and we make the same decision again, with the same intensity that we did in the past. A sense of entitlement, a massive selfish act, a disregard for the feelings of all those others affected !
How can we be confident that should (God willing ) our M become real again that in 1 year or 2 years that we dont go and do it again.
I can tell you with absolute conviction that I would never do it again today but in reality will i feel like this in the future.
