I still believe in miracles

[istherehope]

Hi Daisy,

If I can handle my H telling me being married to me is like prison, and that I am sooo selfish, I can definitely handle a tough post :).

Thanks for the nice words. I wonder how strong I am. I do miss our home and our life so much. We created an adventure together in another country, and it's just not a place that I want to be without my H. Being there this week really drove that home. I will hang in there just as long as I can and as long as he will let me. He's doing the push/pull thing right now. One day he says I may need to let him go, another he is cuddling with me. We have our lease until June in any case, and so maybe this becomes the deadline. I hope it doesn't get to that point though. I believe that things will be better this month, honestly. I just need to become spew resistant.

I am going to do my absolute best in Dublin to make it through. At least I'll be in a place where I can watch English TV etc., little things like that really do make a big difference.

Hope you're doing well today,
ITH