I'm glad it worked out GB. One of the keys in this recovery must be in connecting with others, whether it be the Dental Hygienist or whoever else. It's so wonderful to feel you've connected with someone else and that they do value your presence! When you've spent so long, as I have, being devalued by another you notice big time when another person seems to say "I really like you!" And it's such a small thing too, when you think about it. But it happened because I have opened up and allowed myself to build a rapport with that person. Simple, eh! Now I have something to look forward to in those quarterly visits. Imagine if I did that in so many other areas of my life, I'd have a great time just doing every day things. Connecting is risky though and especially when you've had the crap kicked out of you it's a reach sometimes. I met with my new Pastor a week ago and that happened because I risked and approached him after the service, I don't normally rush up and introduce myself in such situations but something said "do it" so I did. Within minutes the Pastor was suggesting we get together and talk about what has happened in my life. Wow! Just like that someone said "let's connect". Again, because I took that little risk. I met with my shrink this week and she agreed that me not having another R right now is probably for the best. R's are stressful, time consuming and take alot of energy, it's best for me to find who I am again before trying to engage someone in a meaningful R. I'm in agreement, as you said GB, find yourself first and everything else will fall into place! Gotta run, I'm trying to do a budget for myself and it isn't looking that rosy. The first year I haven't really bothered with figuring out what I can or cannot spend but now my money is slowly going down, down , down so part of healing will now be living within my means...yuchh!
