I am all over the place with my emotions about Thursday being the day of my divorce. I have been frantic with the lawyer, getting the paperwork in order. H hasn't even read the papers, handed them back to me and said "I trust you". Um, ok. Luckily I am a good person because the lawyer forgot some major major points in the paperwork.
I realized last night with my friend (she is getting a D, H practically marrying OW, two kids, we are sad peas in a pod) that I might be placing too much 'hope' on the actual D day, that it will make things all better. I am realizing there is tons of hard stuff coming my way.
H has a girlfriend and probably not sleeping at his dads. Its a gut feeling I have, and its NEVER been wrong. Not my business, but ouch.
Journaling with better things:
Hit Grants Farm for their Halloween function. We went with my friend and her 2 kiddos. Had a blast. Danced the night away with them to kids song, and the old party classics (Electric Slide, Macarena, hee!). Girls partied hard. Great night.
I might be placing too much 'hope' on the actual D day, that it will make things all better. I am realizing there is tons of hard stuff coming my way.
L-you are absolutely right. The D day won't make everything all better. It was a terrible day for me when I got the final papers and again when I got the signed decree. I thought that it would be a sense of relief etc, but it wasn't....at least not right away.
What you do have to look forward to however is that from this point, you are going to move forward. It is final and in writing and you are only required to do what is in the D papers unless you want to. He can't come and go. He can't pop into your world and disrupt things near as much. Believe it or not, in a few days you will see a change. You may have lost your H, but you will slowly see that you are getting your life back.
Good luck
Me: 44 S: 17 and 7 Final-6-13-08 I once went to a psychic who told me I would soon feel cheated......
Thanks goodness for children and all the love, joy and activities they generate. It's great you are their mom and relish the time you spend with them.
Remember... any thoughts you have about him take away from the energy that can be put in your own life. Where did I read... Would it bother you if your brother were sleeping with a woman? The goal is too look at the ex-spouse like that.. or neighbor. Interesting concept.
Girl, I've been thinking about you a lot lately. I hope you can wrap your arms around those girls on Thursday and take away some of the thoughts of your D. I know that we'll all be wrapping our arms around you....in thought.
I'll email you soon.
Hugs & take care-
SueS
ME: 42, H: 42, D6 Together: 18 yrs. Married: 15 yrs. Attended Retrouvaille - December 2009 Status: Working on it day by day
lwb - this week is going to be tough. I want you to know we are all thinking of you and we are here to help you up if you fall. I know when my D finally comes I will prob cry my eyes out. It is the final death of what could have been, but I hear it does get better.
I love grants fram. Did you get attacked by the goats? Now that AB has sold, I wonder if they are going to change how it is run. I hope not.
I'm thinking of you and you will come through this. Remeber, this is a gift wrapped in the sh!tiest of papers. I truly see that you have gotten to a point where you have seen that your life can move on to better things. Chin up!
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
because the lawyer forgot some major major points in the paperwork.