Thank you Sandi for the kind words and the encouragement. Where do you recommend that I start a new thread? I wish my relationship wasn't so poor with the W so that she could give you some other info on how to deal with you fibro. She evidently has become much better now that she is with OM. I do believe it has allot to do with diet. My sisters employer just wrote a book, I believe I told you about it, but it doesn't come come out until Dec., I'll let you know the title when it is published. Sandi, I may be going here where I shouldn't go. If what I say below is off base, then I apologize from the bottom of my heart even though it is pretty broken right now. On your R with your H, do you want it to work? Is it in your heart? It is really strange being here on the internet typing away to people you will never see, how easy it is to get rapped up in their problems. You see that all the time. You can't wait to get online to see whats new. I'm the same way, it just draws me in, I want to check me emails 50 times a day and before I know it, the day or evening is gone. Am I wrong, if so tell me, but first you really need to think about it. Being online gets me away from all the problems that I should be dealing with. Like right now I should be working on and sorting paperwork for my lawyer so I screw my W out of penny she thinks she might get but doing that brings out memories of her, SSSOOOOO, here I am, avoiding the problem. Is it bad? Not necessarily, I'm just putting off the inevitable. But I think if you are in a R with someone who loves you in their own way, that is wrong. How do you deal with it, only you can answer that. the answer is inside you. Do I want to feel young, sexy, desirable, full of vigor, your damn right but I'm now 57. I lost 18 years of my life with that woman, not feeling any of that and I want it now. Where am I going with this, I don't know. I suddenly got side tracked on myself, sorry. I've told you this before, you spend allot of time here, maybe thats where you want to be, in a safe place, but is not fair to the marriage. You have to figure that one out. Did I explain that well enough to understand? I'm not beating on you at all, I'm trying to help you think it through in my own way, which of course could be the wrong way. Anyway, pleeaase don't take it the wrong way You really are in my prayers Sandi, God Bless Take care Peter
