Ok ladies, you are killing me! All this longing, pining, dreaming etc. I want to kick myself of all the times I turned my H down -- I would stay up late playing scrabble on line or watching some stupid movie. Now that I am working out, walking, doing yoga and losing weight (24 lbs and counting), I want to jump on my H and now there is no opportunity. And I keep comparing myself to the Ow who is tiny except for her fake boobs/butt and plastic face. I can't compete and it is affecting my self esteem. Well at least my H is putting weight on.
Well tonight I went and had my hair colored/highlighted and it came out good. I called home and D tells me Daddy is over (she had 2 friends over), I come home and there is H sleeping on the couch. I made some noise and he was in deep sleep, well I am sitting there for like an hour and he finally wakes up. He stays about 20 minutes more and we sit on the front porch. He told me 3 times he liked my hair. Finally he goes to leave and gives me a hug. Instead of saying "I miss you" like I did last time I said I appreciated the time you spent here. I said in a joke way (but of course I was serious) you could have a sleepover here. He laughed and of course left.
Tomorrow is Ow's daughter's wedding. H has been pretty much on his own this week. Will see how much time he spends with her next week.
So we all know we would like that special night with H. Well since we can't -- remember the nights that they would flaggalate or burb or something equally gross. We are lonely and it sucks but better days are ahead.
As far as hooking up with another man -- I think we all think of it but if George Clooney is not available -- count me out (smile)
This is a lonely road and nights like this make me more determined to GAL and DB and work on getting H back, no matter how mad I am at him.
Me 53 H 50 D16, D29 M 22 years bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H 8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also bomb II - H moves 10/1 expose ow 10/22 D to be final 9-09
