Hello everyone. Hope and Marisol, thanks for replies and encouragement. Home alone tonight. Kids are all at friend's houses. H is away this weekend for Mizzou game - not that I'd see him anyway, but it must be so nice- only 2 weekends and $600/month in regards to family responsibilities. I keep thinking he and I could be here together, alone right now. I know , probably TMI, but I long for intimacy. I can really understand the need for him - not just physcially, but emotionally.But ironiclly, that part of our R really took off several months before H left. I think the Wellbutrin really helped. I was really enjoying it, but of course, he says although he noticed , and it was good, there was no emotional connection for him. Ouch, that hurt really bad.
Marisol - thanks for info . I guess that is something I can keep in mind. I keep wondering if I should be sitting in limbo, but I cant afford to hire atty right now, and I wonder if that may be one reason why I havent been served - I cant believe H could afford it either. Is this friend's roomate a male? Is she trying to hook you up? Be careful. I dont know about you, but Im feeling vulnerable. My thoughts flip flop between the perfect M with my H, then I think of who else is out there - am I destined to be with someone else? CRYSTAL BALL PLEASE!! Its only been almost 4 months. How the H#%@ do people survive this for any longer? 1 week from tonight is 16yr anniversary. I keep fooling myself that will be the night H will be on his knees. Marisol , I know you recently had your anniversary in Sept. and you survived, so I know Ill get through it somehow too. Its probably a good thing Ill be working that night. Please report back about Fireproof. I really really want to see that movie. People at church had been talking about it. I was actually thinking of seeing it tonight too, but I wont have time before D11 gets home. I plan to see it by myself though cuz ill be a wreck Im sure.
T2l, hope Disney was good. I cant imagine being able to enjoy that sort of thing with H again. We've been too distant physically and emotionally and it just seems to get worse. Maybe it gets worse before it gets better? I dont know. Anyway, thank you for the links. I did read them. I just dont feel motivated at this time cuz Im just feeling so unsure right now. Please continue to post updates.
me 36 H38 S11 D11 (twins) S14 M 16yr Oct 17 T 21yr IDLYA 6/18 H moved out 6/19 H confessed A and asked for D 7/4 H consulted atty 1mo ago Still waiting to be served
