NoCode, Thanks so much for stopping by my thread. It's been uplifting to see the welcomes from so many DBers. I see you're still trudging along in your sitch. But it sounds like you're truly rising above it all. Telling myself "it doesn't matter" has been a regular mantra with me.
A good friend of mine lost her H in late August. He had a heart attack. He was 53. Their second D was just out of college and they were looking forward to vacations they put off, etc. And in one afternoon he was gone. That was what pulled me out of the rut of dark despair where I had spent most of the summer.