I just want to throw my hands up in the air and say, "I surrender. You are free. Now, go away."
I do not want to go back to old ways. I feel like H is trying to rope me into the same dance we have been dancing, the dance we were in back at MC last year before he moved, where he wasn't sure what he wanted, wasn't sure how to get it, loved me but didn't know how to make it work, etc etc. If he can't MOVE from that stuck position, I will have to leave him behind. B/C I hate standing still and I will NOT go backward again.
