Actually it was good to get that stuff down cos it made me realise what I'm managing to deal with at the moment...with no ill effects...
I intend doing the majority of what I can myself - short of new roof - which mortgage co said was needed...I can manage bits of plumbing/electical and grunt work - levelling floors, plastering and so on - and as i said, i enjoy it...managed to do a fair bit on house before - although W feigned disinterest in the process - being absolutely no help whatsoever and moaning about the mess - despite grousing about the state of the place pre-me getting it sorted out. Actually, she has always seemed pretty ambivalent about the results to which now I hold against her cos I largely did all of those things out of acts of service. Although I do realise that my timing was off! you see, i bust a gut trying to show her I loved her through sorting these things out - when what she really wanted/needed was emotional + physical connection - although me being such a Dam was not on the same page. Isn't it sh!t how smart you can be after the event!
I have an advantage this time though cos if I make a mess I don't have to make sure everything is tidied up! That alone can double the length of a job!
On my badminton nights - i play with friends - some work/some outside work. They're not super social but have more potential...I simply enjoy the game and so do these guys...and gals...
The school stuff/playgroup/PTA - well...they are pretty much as you imagine in a smallish Derbyshire village!!! But I get a lot personally out of putting something back into the community and feeling part of it. And they're really good people - not the folks I would have chosen years ago for a night on the town with but now, well, I've become more and more tolerant and respectful of a wider range of people and I don't mind my time being taken up in this way - although of course - it is de rigour to moan about it! These activities fit well with my professional interest in education, outdoor activities and community education/ provision - I could bore for Britain on it if need be!
We're about to get a fund-raiser into the village!!! We have so many small groups/clubs here - all fighting to raise money - yours truly had the idea of getting a fundraiser type person who can act as the focus for all such activity and store info about bids/demographics etc - which you need if applying - and will also work to put groups in touch with one another - so they can work on a collaborative bid! Anyhow, the idea has been taken up by the parish council and it looks like a goer!!!
On to the injuries...leg all cleared up - the medical consensus was that the last episode with my leg was a stress fracture - which, thanks to the mysterious workings of the NHS has now cleared up without any intervention apart from self-imposed rest. Have managed a couple of adventure races but with house, S6 and commute my regular / swimming has dropped off - which I am disappointed about but determined to sort out. you see, at the moment, my schedule is all to cock trying to get my new place more habitable and dealing with running between work, W/S6 and new home.
Tomorrow I intend reconnecting with a few of my pub-group friends - these are folks I dropped like a stone when the bomb hit - this was largely an act of self preservation, and was I think necessary at the time - i had to do it cos of the drinking issue. But given the current state of affairs i see no reason to live in self imposed excile as far as this area of my life is concerned. Anyhow, its important to me to feel that I am still part of this village; W has taken over the "going out" mantle over the past 18 months and its time I re-entered the scene a bit. If not that then there is a friend (woman) I've been seeing very casually who said she would be free if I fancied climbing and a drink after...nothing at all serious...don't want it - of course what I want is for my W and I to rediscover the excitement and love we had for each other...so any sort of serious "other" relationship is way down the line for me.
All my efforts at the moment are to be towards S6 and making sure he's on an even keel with everything. And when i have some respite from the day job - getting on with my new pad.
And Lan - thanks for pushing - i really appreciate it...
KBO - GFI
Me: 40ish W: 40ish Together: 20 ish years Married: 10ish Years
