I guess it's over

[AliSuddenly]

Hey Trixi,

I have been reading, lurking even and I'm sorry you are slowly coming to terms with the idea of D. You dont say, but, are you still in touch with him now or have you not spoken? (I think you said you were going dark a few pages back). Of course you would hang on for 3 years, is not as if he had completely checked out of the R (as my ex has!) so there was some hope there.

I understand that you feel like you failed, I do too, we all do, but its a funny kind of failure isnt it? If it was an exam, you could set your heart on it, know what to do, work hard and get the result you wanted. We are all trying to do the same, but the ones we are trying to do our best for, dont want to hear it. Thats human nature, so in that respect, you havent failed, you just tried really hard, but the outcome was the same, thats all.

Have you thought about doing ...nothing? Stay dark, but dont push the D either? Just let him be, see if he misses you? Risky I know.

Ali xxx