Hey Julia: There are a few reasons I am dark. Yes, H mentioned the D word again. We were in a good place, and he uses that to back off.
Mostly it is becasue the emotional rollercoaster is killing me. I am so tired of the up and down. I was very angry in the beginning of the week, but have calmed down since them. I think I am at the point of saying either way, I will be okay. I love my H with all my heart. But I also cannot just be his friend. I am his wife. If he doesn't want me to be his wife, he cannot have it both ways. I cannot stay in his life so I can be around just when he needs me. I have to be able to need him too, and right now, I can't. So it is better for me, and my heart, to not talk to him right now.
I will take a look at the thread...
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
