shout to {{{{jgrind}}}}} Yes, it is so overwhelming with all the issues on a everyday level. You have to deal with OW in your face, alcohol, and OW H. Not easy but you are handling it with dignity and strength. Love that you are seeing personal trainer to increase strength and assertive training. What doesn't kill us will make us strong.
We question ourselves every day. I know some days I just want to pick up a phone and file but then something has still held me back. We all know our own breaking point. You are not being judged here. We were semi-church goers (Catholic), but it seemed the past 6 months we did not go at all and then everything fell apart. I know if I get my marriage back on track if God is not part of it -- it will not thrive. The one session we had together with the MC I specifically said this but of course H was not interested in working on the marriage at all.
Keep your goal list together. I am going to buy a journal this weekend and write in it every night. I also keep a bible at my bed and try to read at least a few passages every night (something I have not done ever). My MC told me continue to work on yourself because God is working on your H. I need to let go and that is one of my biggest struggles right now. I will say a prayer for you and your family. Sounds like you are on the right track with this church and it might be nice to have a new friend if he joins with his family. take care.
Me 53 H 50 D16, D29 M 22 years bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H 8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also bomb II - H moves 10/1 expose ow 10/22 D to be final 9-09
