I am doing a good job of avoiding "more of the same" and "old BBJ" behaviors. In the past if I tried to reach H like I did last night and he didn't respond, I would have called again every 30 min. or so until I got ahold of him. Or would have sent a pouty text about how he was too busy for me again.
Of course, in those instances I always wound up forcing a conversation when it was not a good time (like 2 in the morning, both in different states, tired, crabby, etc) and it NEVER went well. If H agreed w/me he was only caving b/c he was tired and wanted to sleep.
So I didn't call him last night. Haven't called him today. Tired of pursuing. This man should show up at my door with an armful of flowers tonight. He won't, but he should. I can't respect myself if I keep throwing myself at him with no reciprocation.
I am not sure what this all means yet. I did say in my letter:
I would really appreciate it if you could answer those same questions and send them to me over the next couple days, if you have time.
He didn't do so. I don't really know what else I could do...
