FLTC: You are absolutely right. And I have had far more than my fair share of stuff. But I've also learned that we all have stuff. Some is big, some is not. But the important thing is how we deal with our stuff. I've made some mistakes but I think my heart was usually in the right place.
You have a lot of stuff right now. Just try to deal with one thing at a time. I know you're on the right track. If you ever want to talk - you know where I am.
