Yes, it is an issue, I mean I guess it is an issue, if that is why things do not change because I am not firm enough to cause them to.
What I want is my H to come home and to be home. I do not want to live my life like a married woman but be alone every night from 8:30 on. I do not want to wonder where he is after 8:30 - even though it would be quite easy for me to find out.
I say nothing has changed but in a way it has - he is so much more the person he used to be. And little things like watching a tv show together are happening that didnt happen for so long - for awhile when he would come over he would sit on the couch and that is it - now it seems more "normal".
That is good I think - maybe it isnt maybe the current situation (that I want changed) is too comfortable.
I really no longer question whether he loves me - I know he does, and I know he cares about me - I just don't know if he is ever coming back.
Me~34 H~38 D6.5
EA/PA-DEC.07
Moved out~Apr.13,08 Sep. Papers~Dec.7,08 No contact order ~Dec.9,08 and again October 13, 2009
