I am so tired! It seems now that I have gone permanent at the job, the work is neverending, but I am loving every minute of it!
No word from H. That is okay though. I miss him, but really don't want to talk to him either. It is strange. Sometimes the hurt still overwhelms me, but on the other hand, most of the time I am doing well. I think I am beginning to finally heal.
And one of the best things is I am not getting calls from damned creditors all day! it is exhausting, being broke. I wish I could win the lottery so I could just pay everything off and disappear into the world.
Of course, that isn't going to happen...but it is a nice dream!
Speaking of dreams, I had another strange one last night. H was still in Germany doing his training, and I was kissing another man. All of a sudden, H was trying to get me on my cell, but I missed the call, and because he was overseas I couldn't call him back.
Hmmmmm...
I wonder what the heck all of that means.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
