Thanks H4H, stupid is pretty much how I feel too. I feel stupid for putting myself through this. I feel stupid for thinking that there could be a chance for us. Mainly I just feel stupid because in the end I still love him...don't know why, but I do and it makes me so sad because its obviously not reciprocated. Or not in the way I need it to be.
Yeah, well join the club. I'm right there with you. I think most of us are!!! Or just maybe intensely loyal, optimistic people that take our marriage vows seriously? Nah, you're right, I'm stupid! Karen
Nope Karen, you aren't stupid. I'm just frustrated, mostly at myself. I think I feel frustrated that we are still "here" but the stupid comes in because there is a part of me that "wants to believe" what he says. The logical part of me knows better, but there is still that desire to have the "happy ending", you know? The Hollywood ending where it all gets wrapped up in the last 20 minutes... Truly none of us are "stupid", just like what you said, loyal people who took our vows seriously. Its just so hard to be the better person sometimes.
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
Karen
