Yep, we have tentative plans, and yes they are all hoping we are together for hte holidays. If we are great, couldn't be happier, but if we are not, we have plans set for that. Holidays are going to be hard. Her grilfriend that she lives with told me at the end of august, that they are in my favor. finding out about her emotional meltdown on my anniversary didn't hurt either. I made it through without a tear. Lots of anger, resentment and harsh words, but no tears.
Sandi, this thing that happened today has me on cloud nine. I knwo, I know, don't get over excited as it says in the book. But when she has given me nothing in the past two months, to a conversation. not just a phone call but a conversation, like we used to have. She opened up and told me details of things, ask my advice talked about things bothering her like working for her car. This isn't a baby step to me, this is huge. I just finished my first journal entry, 3 pages long...Finished my taking down the swingset, scrapping the metal project tonight. Lawn is mowed, yard looks huge. My plans for the weekend are all set. People interested in purchasing my camp are driving 3 hours to see it. Yeah, I think that baby is sold. Close that chapter, and open a new one. yep, friend of mine has a cheap camper down at the camp ground and he wants to basically give it to me so I come back. How's that for a turn around. drove these people batty with my drunken drama for almost two years and now they are finding me a place so i stay. Oh yeah, I'm back, I 'm sooooooo back.....And It is all ove her friends network that I was with this couple Tom and Linda last night. apparently she was raving about me, my look, muy appearance my attitude how funny i was, just how good everything is, LD is getting by as a single parent, she must be nuts, oh my god...The whole shooting match. My emails were lit up today...Like I said, if she's gonna hear about me its gonna be how I great I am and how great I'm doing, purely positive imagine....Check back on me time to time sooner than later. finished the book, its a lot to take in so I will read my survining her midlife crisis again and then read DR again. My plasn is actually quite simple. More of the same I am doing right now. I will watch...I am looking forward to each day now, not worrying about them...They even noticed in work today my attitude difference. I am so glad i talked with my friends last night. I can't believe what I have done in 2 months...I never looked, always worried, heard the words and thought they were kind until he said, wow must've blown her mind that you were busy on thehouse again and not sitting around watching the tube. Worked around and went shopping for food. Crashed and finished DR around 8:30....Oh yeah, back, and ready to rumble....
