Suga, same for me. I think I feel more stupid more than anything. I'm a little lonely, but not too much. I'm back at the point where I just want to say F it. Let her do what she is going to do.
Thanks H4H, stupid is pretty much how I feel too. I feel stupid for putting myself through this. I feel stupid for thinking that there could be a chance for us. Mainly I just feel stupid because in the end I still love him...don't know why, but I do and it makes me so sad because its obviously not reciprocated. Or not in the way I need it to be. Just more emotional lately. The closer it gets, the more emotional I seem to get. Not clingy to him or anything, but just find myself thinking about things and wondering how it all went so wrong and feeling sad. I'm lonely because I choose to be. I think that if I were to put myself out there, I would be tempted to find me some alphabet boys to raise my self esteem and I'm not sure I would Want to resist that temptation, so I just don't tempt myself.
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
