Wow Ready, when put to the challenge you sure deliver. Today is a much better day. You made the statement why would I keep NC up if it is not working. I have thought about this long and hard. I am doing it so that I can detach to a helathy place. So that I dont have expectations when he does reach out to me. So that I can appreciate him as a friend and that is all. At this moment I want more (cant you tell from my previous post). I dont want to just be his friend...I want him to be my H and me his W.
So, I will detach and live my merry life for the next month to really get to a peaceful place. I will then evaluate where I am at to see if I am ready to reach out. Day by day, as lwb would say. Focus on the now, not on "what might be." Each day is getting better, just had a down moment. Thank you so much for all of your wonferful insight. It really helps. When I can handle the possibility of rejection and dont count on anything but what he offers, then I know I can reach out ot him.
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
