Well I went to trivia alone becuase my H has told me he isnt interested in it. However, he still was at the bar across the street from where trivia was all night long. He never once stopped in to say hi to me or all of the 20 other old friends of his. Instead, he was drinking as usual with all his new single buddies.
It is driving me nuts.
He ended up coming over afterwards as planned and we had a nice evening and I even finished watching the movie I started the day before that he interupted.
I am starting to just focus on doing the things that make me happy and telling him what it is that "I" have planned for "my" evenings. I am no longer going to invite him or try to make plans, I will just state what I am doing and if he wants to come along then great. If not, then we are just moving slowly farther apart.
Its like when you get burned from a hot stove, you learn not to touch it again. Slowly, I think the pain and hurt he causes me in our M is going to make me put my guard up even more to protect my heart from being broken again.
This stinks, I was so happy that he wanted to come back and work on our M and begin piecing. Now I just feel fear of it not working out due to his crazy drinking, poor priorities, and not wanting to move back in with each other.
I am not giving up, I am just stepping back and I will wait and see whats in our future. TIPPER
