Well, I got to not my first positive sign to put into my journal. I had text my W about her car ins money. She didn't respond. She called my work and when they said i was out inthe factory she said she would call back later. I went out at lunch time to my truck to read my DR book. I resent the text. she called me back immediately. I had checked her account and she claims they screwed up her deposit and only put in $20 and gave her a check fo rthe rest. She wanted 20 to go to savings and the rest in checking. Why she explained this to me is anyone;'s guess, but she did. She told me she only made 400 over the last 2 weeks (paid bi-weekly). 260 has to go to her car payment, she ran out of gas last night and her car has only 10 in it since last night. she can only afford to give me half of the ins right now. I told her to get me 65 tomorrow and I will get the rest next pay check. It will cost her 60 to fill her car. mathematically, that is 395. She has 400. She doesn't get paid agian until two weeks from today, daughters b'day next week, surprise party for her dad, next week. She confieded in me that the bank should just take the car or she will have to declare bankruptcy. I have to talk to my lawyer, I don't think shge can, they will come after me. anyway, she says her girlfriend (friend of bothof ours) is here from AZ and tonight is her last night here. she wants to get together with my wife and a few other friends. She wanted to know if I could push her brakes off until tuesday night next week or if she could use my truck while I worked on her car. I said Tuesday is fine. She asked about her dad's party, if I knew anything and I said I hadn't heard anything concrete. I asked her how everything else is going and she said OK, didn't sound really happy. I said I had to go and she said Ok, I'll talk to you later. This is positive for this reason, no text. Texting is emotionless. she called and tried to get in touch with me. When I text her, I get text back, end of story. I didn't bend on the insurance. I am holding her to her payments. It is hard to hear about her financial hardships, but I have them too. We talked as we had in the past, calmly, not getting upset about money and she talked abotu this that and the other thing. It was nice. What I did prior to this, being dark all last week, leaving a dance she arrived at, being calm cool and collected around her Sunday and then being occupied Tuesday night and getting things done n front of her. MY putting myself first and being dark are showing me positive signs. wanted to share this with you all. Yes I know I am a far way from reconciliation and her coming home, but I am keeping track of what is working and what isn't. Hurray for me. I will keep you all posted. I am doing he rbrakes Tuesday night now. she asked if I could do them maybe Sunday, told her I was busy.
