I guess it's over

[Trixi]

Journaling:
Still no word from H. Of course, he could say the same thing about me, so....

Went out with non-date guy (NDG) on Tuesday to celebrate his birthday along with a friend of his. It was basically a Food Crawl for Charity downtown; so we walked to all the participating restaurants and got a little sample of whatever they were offering. Scallops; lentil salad w/duck confit; lamb shanks and shepards pie;bacon and onion tart--lots more-- it was very yummy. His friend is 4 years divorced and had lots of insight about the emotional process. And it wasn't pretty. ugh. After that, NDG and I went to a dance club that was playing 80's music so that was fun.
Last night I went to a meetup in a little pub; met some women that want to see my jewelry (Christmas coming up) and also a guy that was SUPER interesting. Used to be an engineer, but now basically dabbles around in art. He loves animals (his mom does some animal rescue). He mentioned stamping PMC (silver), but that he was done with that hobby and wanted to sell his old type set that he used to stamp. I have been looking at purchasing a set of letters so I can stamp silver; score! AND, even though he was 7 years older than me, he looked very young. (I pointed that out because a lot of the guys near my age look A LOT older. Not that it's all about looks-I'm just saying.) He just picked up some watercolor stuff and is looking to take a class. I have looked into taking a class within the past 3 months.

So, we didn't start talking until near the end of the meetup and everyone else left and we stayed at the place for another couple+ hours.

ANYway, he may be in contact today so that I can check out the letter stamps and see if they'll work for what I want to do.

My main point of that whole dialogue was that I was pleasantly surprised. That there was a guy out there that likes art type things; likes animals; is attractive, smart and funny; active but able to read and be 'chill' AND is single, near my age that doesn't want any more children..well, I am glad to know it's possible. The 4yr divorced guy said that I *will* have a rebound relationship and it *will* suck big-time when it ends; which makes me want to avoid having any "relationships"....Maybe dating my H and having it fall apart (again) can be my rebound..? lol

So, for now, I feel like I am walking around a huge buffet table with an empty plate in hand. Checking out what is being served, but not ready to put anything on my plate. Just enjoying seeing my choices before I start nibbling.