Hey Carlos, its going ok, not bad, not great. each day gets a little better, doing some shopping - clothes for daugher, LCD TV, camera, furniture - so that gives me some instant gratification.
STBXW aggrevated me this morning. i know, detach.
a few weeks ago we discussed a schedule for our daughter, STBXW gets her monday and wednesday nights, i get her tuesday thursday, we switch every other friday for the weekend. thats as close to a 50/50 split which fits our schedules that i could come up with. plus it gives each of us a long weekend - she gets her thursday night to monday morning some weekends, others i get her friday night to tuesday morning.
this morning she says she's not comfortable with that schedule, she feels our daughter would be passed around too much. STBXW didnt have any schedule worked out that we could discuss - typical, doesnt like my decision but doesnt have a suggestion of her own. she's been planning on leaving for at least 5 months, and just weeks before she leaves, she still doesnt have a schedule. i guess OM hasnt told her what it should be yet.
she probably heard from her lawyer that with that schedule and our pay being equal she wont get any child support.
just ticks me off that she's claiming to worry about our daughter, but hasnt done anything to fix our R, was taking our daughter on play dates with the OM, wanted to rent a house with OM, all of which, in my opinion, is not good for my daughter.
besides that i've had great days, some mediocre days. getting my head back into work. lawyer is confident I can protect my assets, and with the housing and stock market the way it is, it works in my favor. friends are all great support, i had to pass up a night out with my Dr friend and a bunch of nurses - i'll have time for that later. going to see my brother this weekend, so that'll be great.
at this point i just want to get this over with, want her out of the house and out of sight. feel nothing for her anymore, not much anger, just going to let karma do its job. daughter will be fine when she's with me, cant control what STBXW does.
taking a break from therapy, just want to work through this by myself right now. may or may not go back. told C this and she made me feel like i was breaking up with a girlfriend. i felt like i had to give her counseling. schedule is just tight, money is tight, work is demanding - bunch of little reasons.
"In a ham and eggs breakfast, the hen is involved, but the pig is committed".
