W and I seperated in June after a big blow out with MIL. W ende up filling for D. We have been going to coaching, seeing each other as in dating and such. She seems to be doing the bare min in coaching. She does have me helping her at house with a lot of "chores" etc. She also has OM, not sure how serious they are. she tells me the other day, "I care but I don't think I can love you". Odd thing is that she had told me that she likes who I have become, treatment for anger issues, more than she ever has. She also allows me to be at the house a couple times a week. She is the type that if she didn't want somebody around she wouldn't let them be there. She also told coach two weeks ago that she does have hope for the future. Now this. I don't get it. I don't thing the walking a way from her would work on her as it gives her an easy out and wouldn't keep working on us. However I am feeling like she is getting her cake and eating it too. The OM thing is eating me up, I have lost 50+lbs since June and this doesn't help. Gotten to the point where I have even looked into suicide. I do call a friend or counciler when feeling this way but no sure how long I can put up with this without it ruining me mentally. Any ideas? What do you suggest with the W that says " I don't know if I can love you"? Keep trying, and for how long? Thanks in advance. If you want to know more back ground I posted back in July. Uneder"Scared of lossing wife"
