Oh, and one more note for right now, thought of divorce is out of my head. I have pushed this idea of threatening her with that out the window. If I am truly back, then trust me, she sees it, she really sees it. And with holidays and other things coming up, it will be me taking charge of my being, it will be me making sure the holidys are the best they can be, it will be me making sure everyone is enjoying themselves and it will be me binding everythng together. I am that strong, that committed and that positive. Once her brakes are done, I'll finish my yard projects. have a potential buyer for my camper, could signal huge financial push for me. Just outstanding...My friends wife said to me last night as I was leaving, she's gotta be out there, you had your issues and depression, but , WOW, she doesn't know what she is missing now. I can't believe it, its like going back n time, your appearance, your attitude everything about you it is amazing. She doesn't go down that path often as she is a realist. But she says, she just can't get over my change. the last time they saw me was a little over three months ago. We were all out drinking, I was getting hammered, wife was gettng flirty and I was getting mean. They told another couple we were with that we make everyone uncomfortable when we dirnkl, they never know whats going to happen. sometimes we were all lovey dovey and other times we were pissng down each others back.
She wsays i can't believe how you are after 3 months, I said all this happened mostly in 1 month, the rest is because of who I had to become to survive, her response, Nice to know you didn't have to become someone we didn't know, you became someone we all knew already.
