I cant thank you enough for the wishes. My dad did have surgery yesterday. They called in the morning and said they had to do it because he had fever and there were no signs of improvement. Actually all the tests showed it was getting worse not better. So I left work and went to the hospital. The surgery went well. They took him very late so we spent a few hours together. I did tell him again how much I love him again and he and mom were hugging and he promised to her he was coming out alive and honestly after that I felt at peace (44-45 years of marriage). He was joking with me and looked pretty good actually...
Well, now he is in intesive care, he was to go back to the room this morning but they are keeping him a while longer. My mom is falling apart and so is my brother who is dealing wih this by repeating "it's over, he is gone etc etc". Of course that doesnt help our PMA much, but I figured that it is his way of preparing for the worst and probably secretly he is hoping for the best.
Yesterday it was another difficult day but since I have had a couple of those recently all feelings were familiar and manageable. I did feel a bit lonely but thank God my friends and people I love dearly were all thinking of me and checking on me.
I have a lot to share about stbX but I will later. Thank you again for everything K
