I still believe in miracles

[istherehope]

Thanks Pisces,

So great to hear from you :).

I am not entirely sure whether this trial thing is good or bad yet. H has expressed being really down on M in general right now, and there was some major backsliding from my end on Monday.

I'll be at the house tonight though, so will do my best to earn my credibility back. I just love him so much and when he is so negative about me as someone who could possibly add joy to his life, it's really hard. At least I have not backslid and said ILY. This is one mistake I have avoided the whole time.

Luckily the OM thing was avoided last night as he ended up going to bed early. I saw him at breakfast this morning. He is always overly concerned. He said he is worried about me, that I need to eat more, I'm too pale etc. However, I've been only polite in response. I somehow feel like I had to deal with a situation like this before going back to my H. Like this proved how much my R means to me that I passed up an opportunity that would have been easy to take, even without guarantees from my H.

No response from H on my email yesterday still. It was all positive and DB safe anyway, but dates for things have historically made him a little nervous. I guess we'll see what happens tonight. I am going to do my best to remain positive between now and then! I am going for a walk on the beach now to work on calming my nerves a bit.

Thanks for the positive vibes Pisces. I will post on your thread later, am really glad to hear you are doing well :).

ITH