It has been over five years since I gotten a kiss or heard the words ILY. At first I stayed for my daughter. Now, I stay for myself. My W, is happy and I get a hug before she leaves for work. We've been having more casual talks. Sometimes she'll say my name in a happy up beat tone.
Other than hugs I can show her my affection by kissing her on the cheek. Depending how she feels, she may lean towards me. How did I get all these baby steps? By praying and leaving my problems into God's hands.
I'm not an innocent, but I'm a pretty good guy. My W has screwed up so much and so badly I let it go. I point out her mistakes when they involve me or the family. Other than that I let her stand on her own.
I L her but only b/c she's my W. A long time ago I was told not to make promises. The death to us part is what I'm waiting for. I know God would forgive me if I get a D. I know that I deserve more affection in my life than the tiny bread crumbs my W throws out.
