Another one bites the dust (2)

[No Longer BH]

Ok, I am going to post something stupid, but I am just wondering at the moment. You know we all get those little moments of doubt...did I do all I could? Did I give up too soon? Should I be acting like his friend in hopes of "winning" him back? I was not capable of handling the pain of him being with OW while acting like a friend to me, so I went NC to protect myself. Was this the right thing to do?

See, I sometimes wonder that by going dark I am ensuring my D. Most of the time I look at this man who my STBXH has become and know I do not want him. But then, there are times where I see my old H peeking out and I miss him. He WANTS contact with me. He WANTS to be my friend. As long as he is with OW, I dont see any hope for "us". I went NC to just move on, and mostly I am. Again, this is just weak me talking late at night. That little voice of doubt. So you wise Dbers, do we leave them to live their lives while they are involved with OW or do we act like their best friend, even though it hurts hoping they will see what they lost?

Sorry for feeling so down. I am sure tomorrow I will feel my strength again, I just want to make sure that I am walking the right path. That I am not messing things up if there is a possiblitiy. Argg...this is so hard sometimes.