Man I'm struggling to write that letter. I don't know what to say besides "I love you, I always have and always will. I want you back in my life. Let's start over."
Lol.
Not good.
I guess I don't know if I should write and just tell him good luck and that I am proud of him or if I should give in to the mushy side a little bit. I'm torn.
I will think it over some more and try to write again later. I'm just fuzzy right now. Any imput would be beautiful!
On the plus side I did apply for several jobs today. One thing we talked about yesterday was what city to live in. I told him I kinda needed to know sooner rather than latter because where we live depends a lot on what city I should be looking for a new job in. He wouldn't commit to anything really. He threw out a few ideas so I will just look close to where I am now and make the plan for myself. If he wants to jump on board he will have to make some sacrifices. If he refuses then I would know this isn't the right thing for me anyways. I have got to start feeling like a priority and when he wants to pick which city we live on based by how close it is to his friends house, even if it is not convinient or comfortable for me then we have a major problem.
Tomorrow I have my second IC appointment. I hope a lot of ground will be covered then. Maybe I can get some clarity as to what my next steps should be in light of his upcoming departure.
