Sandi is here and things are getting better!

[sandi2]

That was suppose to be "heart" and not heat...lol. Plus I have to back up on this quote:

I had just hoped that some of this stuff would wake him up, but it didn't seem to work like that at all.

I have to go back in time and remember how I truly felt and I'm not sure I remember wanting him to change. I was not even thinking about leaving him b/c he would not change. That was not the issue. The issue was that I did not feel in love with him and I was trying to convince myself that I loved OM. So his changing or not changing was not my issue at that time, exactly. But I was miserable with our lives.......with MY life. I just remember wanting to escape. So, maybe I did and it is getting kind of fuzzy in some areas. Remember I was mixed up pretty bad at that time.

I sounded very mixed up in that last post I sent, too. I would be about through and go back to inject something, so when it was all said and done.....sounds very crazy. Just don't pay any attention.....just me blowing off steam. But thanks for being there.

Sandi