H has paid the first amount of voluntary maintenence into my bank account. I sent him a text thanking him and enquiring after his (always poor) health. Right away the phone went and it was him but when I pressed the answer button it cut off.I called him back right away but he didnt pick up. I think he may have called me by mistake.Anyway he obviously doesnt want to talk and is annoyed I guess over paying me money although he knows I really need it and he would be paying much more if we were divorced.I feel so very hurt that he cant spare 5 minutes to reply to my text.How can he erase 28 years like this?For the first time I am beginning to feel resentful at his current evasive behaviour.At the same time I know he is afraid and confused.God give me more patience as I feel close to really venting at him which would do no good at all for either of us,he feels guilty enough already.
