I still believe in miracles

[istherehope]

Thanks Sep, Opt, and JCJ,

I will avoid the topic of the time limit with H as much as possible. I think what I will consider doing, is just alternating nights of being there/not being there on my own, without him asking me to. I hope that this will show respect and consideration for his feelings, and will help ease into things. At some point, assuming things go well, I can ask if he's feeling comfortable with me around. I know that if he finds he is happy with me being there, he will drop the 2 week thing, but it needs to come from him somehow. If I actively resist, this is what could get us into trouble. I sincerely believe that he is going to make a positive gesture soon if I keep my cool. Thing about him is that he is usually extremely negative before being more positive. I will be at the house again tomorrow night, but he has class, and is unlikely to want to miss it for the 2nd day in a week. This means I won't see him until late at night, so I guess I'll just be in bed when he gets there. Not too much DBing can be done in bed, but I will do my best!

JCJ, on the day of atonement thing, I changed it to "I think the idea of a day of atonement is pretty cool." This is genuine, and for what its worth I know this has always been his favorite holiday, and even alien H might be thinking about things that he's done. Also I changed the ending, so that I could put the Yom Kippur greeting there where it probably belongs "Have a nice night and may you be inscribed and sealed for a great year..."

Thing about this conference is that there is this guy who I am REALLY attracted to, physically and mentally. We talk and joke around a lot, and he knows about my sitch because I actually sort of cried to him on the phone when H first told me about it; it just happened unintentionally. He is separated (legally) from his W of 10 years or so, and has openly expressed an attraction for me. He is someone I'd never want to date, but I'm still attracted to him if this makes sense. I will be good of course. Nevertheless it's a challenge as if we happen to be alone at any point, he is likely to talk to me about my sitch, and I feel like I shouldn't do that with him at all.

Alright, I need to get ready to go to town, meaning I have to send that email earlier than I wanted to, like in the next 10 minutes or so. Oh well...I have to do it as I said I would give the dates.

Thanks for all of your advice. I will start responding to your threads more tomorrow. I just have been distracted here with the conference.

ITH